Sweet Landslide

Gran Kitty!

Gran Kitty!

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
“Landslide,” Stevie Nicks

“Some fates are guaranteed, no matter who tries to intervene.”
Alice Hoffman, Practical Magic

I remember the first time I saw my daughter’s face.  I remember that season of my life.  The sterile smell of a cheap hospital room, the glow from hospital-grade night lights, the hum of machinery running along the wire.  And in that world, two liquid brown eyes.   We were all alone.  Nothing but my two boys ever came that close again to living; nothing ever will.

I think.

Just over two months have gone by since I found out I was to be a “Gran Kitty.”  The name was carefully chosen by the mommy, and myself, in reverence to my government name.  My grandbaby was cast for under a pear tree last September, just as the last fruit hit the ground and a chill was beginning in Alabama.  Real magic, done right.  The earth vibrated so beautifully under our fingers–not an uncommon moment with my beloved Trillium, my dedicated Priestess-in-Training.  Ever loyal, ever faithful to her path, she has watched others come and go and stood (sometimes weeping) firm to her oath to our Tribe.  This was her moment.

But this one, here in this post, is mine.

Letter to my grandchild:

Your mother well knew the trouble you would be.  She foresaw it all.  Your stubbornness, your tenacity, your rebellion.  And she chose it all.  You, Gangani Babe, will drive us all to a reckoning of your witchy will.  And I cannot wait.

Mommy and Me, circa 2012

Mommy and Me, circa 2012

You should know that your momma has given up everything: caffeine, alcohol, tobacco and even bees.  (Your momma was in beekeeping class when she found out.  Your Gran Kitty put a moratorium on bees until your birth.)  You should know this because one day you will turn to her and scream “you don’t love me!” and you will be wrong.  She loves you more than herbology, more than baby kittens, more than her reputation.  She has steadied herself for the unbearable disappointment from her upbringing, community gossip and your formidable teen years.  She says good morning to you before her morning milk and sings to you before she slips into sleep after long shifts at work.  You, my dear child, are already loved beyond reason.

Mommy and Gran (One year exactly from your magical spell)

Mommy and Gran (One year exactly from your magical spell)

And you shall be magic.  We have argued/agreed/compromised through half of your life in our planning.  (Just so you know: at Gran Kitty’s, there will be chocolate cake for breakfast and fairy wings.  I won that one fairly easily.)  You will be raised “witch”: growing and drying herbs as soon as your chubby fingers can grasp them, drumming around fires, spinning webs in twilight and worshipping with the morning sun.  And, my darling, there are some things you will find in the world you have chosen to grace:

Our faith is old, but rarely tolerated by the majority.  This will make public school problematic (for *them* as well as you), and mommy and I have plans for that, too.  We want to spare you from those sad souls who would call you evil, but we know better.  Therefore, we shall invest into your life a thick and tribal pride of the legends from which you came.  You will know your history, sweetie.  Never let anyone make you feel shame for understanding energy, for nurturing magic as your divine inheritance or for revering the Earth and its creatures as sacred.

I’ve told you how Mommy feels–the rest is hers to reveal.  Let me me tell you how I feel about you, these short months before your arrival?

When you are older, someone may say that you are not my blood.  Let’s review how to answer that, baby.  You see, I wasn’t blood for half my line.  Yup.  Gran Kitty was half mutt!  But I had a Grandma who made up for everything.  She saw my flaws, my muck and mire, and stroked my hair: you are wild, baby.  You look like Aunt L.: Cherokee, big spirit, wile chile.  Folks like us need lovin’ that deep: it sinks in where the rips and tears gape and make a salve, babe.  And this is how I intend to love you.

Gran in 1966: raised on barbecue

Gran in 1966: raised on barbecue

Remember this:  you are right.  I do not have to love you.  You are right.  I can call this not my problem.  You are right.  Our blood is not the same.  But you will be wrong if you think that any of that mattered the day I cast for you, too.

We are Cherokee, my sweet.  We adopt.  The bond is impenetrable.

You and I are the same.  We both have a grandmother who loved us beyond all damn walking sense.  We will dry mugwort together, raise strawberries,  fall asleep under family quilts after a night of legends and lemon balm tea.  I will be your ancestor: and that is mine to decide, my dear.  And if anyone ever tells you otherwise: turn to your cousin, Ian, and ask him if DNA mattered.  Ask him if he remembers a life before this family, without love and forever, and see what he says.  (Also, ask him what happened to those who desecrated that love.  Your momma was smarter than all of those muggles.  Fertile as a bunny, that one.)  This is it, baby.  I choose you.  You choose me.  And if anything gets in the way . . .

Grand Kitty has a really sharp hatchet.

Now, you will inherit enemies.  They ain’t got nothing on you, chile.  They gnaw and gnash at every sparkly, buttery thing we grow: and it does them no good.  Don’t you pay no nevermind to that noise.  It’s a hindrance, like yellow jackets and fire ants–but that’s all.  Like your brother J, you are to be born into this wondrous witch family and jealousy is a natural condition of your birth.   Besides: we will prepare you for that mess.  In time, you will find that–while the buzz will disturb your Tuesdays–nothing takes away that feeling of throwing your fingers in the air with a family of witches and the trees as your audience.    Nothing ever shines brightly without drawing the attention of some butthead with a bucket of water.  (But don’t worry, sugar.  We don’t melt.  We grow.)

And finally, you should know something else.  You should know that silly Gran Kitty had a baby growing in her own belly in 2012 and that the strain of age and asshattery (don’t use that word until Momma says it’s okay) took her back to the stars.  That night, I had to grow up.  I had to understand my impending status as Crone.  And as far as I’m concerned:

Your birth is proof that my job isn’t over.  Yet.  You are already making Gran a better person, a better witch and a better friend.  We all fall from grace, hon.  Gran has done it nice and messy-like over the years.  I have suffered my landslide.

But there you are, growing in Mommy’s belly.  Waiting for us all to climb again.

(And don’t worry about dancing in the moonlight, honey.  “Nudity is optional, as you well know.”)

I cannot wait to meet you.  I’ll be the one with funny hair, a sailor’s mouth and a wooden spoon.  Whether you like it or not, that country witch standing there that day, crying and laughing, is your . . .

Gran Kitty

Note to my readers (Trill, never let her see this part until she is grown):

We also lost our sweet little girl, Riley, in 2009.  Unimaginably, it came to our attention that a small group of witches within our community made a “poppet” of sorts with my identifiers and stuck needles in the belly of said poppet.  Hopefully, this was just a rumor (although, never smelled like one) and is not an issue we should worry with this time around.  However:  I beseech all like-minded witches everywhere, in the olden custom, to cast protection for this pregnancy against malicious attack.  Thank you.  And Blessed Be.  Seba

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12 Responses to Sweet Landslide

  1. Santa Muerte, surround this pregnancy with the protection of your powerful scythe. May the baby be born in beauty and in joy. Blessed be.

  2. witcheypoo says:

    I would never want to face the wrath of goddess against one who would spell against a babe-in-belly….
    all blessings to you and yours, adopted family IS family.

  3. Vickie says:

    Congrats dear Gran Kitty! Protection cast. Love you much

  4. Beautiful! One cast of protection…..coming right up!

  5. Lizbet says:

    That baby is wrapped in stars. I think I’m giddy :-D

  6. slystephy says:

    To Gran Kitty’s new lil’ Pooh Bear (this is what I call my daughter), you shall grow strong in the womb till you draw your first breath of sweet southern air, then you will be full of the wonders this magnificent world has to share, you will grow strong and tall like the ancient oak tree, and belong to a great Southern witch family! The Goddess has given you a Great Southern Grand who will love and protect you and give you many lessons of foresight and love! The gift I give to you is you will always have your child sight, through child eyes come great wisdom as this sight is never tarnished by a tainted world. You will have great abilities and will be a gift to the world, and be able to do anything you set your mind to! Blessings sweet lil’ Pooh Bear!!! ,

  7. Cyn says:

    Your tribe is always under my protection, but now names will be named with every cast.

    Congratulations, Gran Kitty and her beloved Trillium. Funny, a while back you said something and I thought ‘ah, a baby for them, too.’ We have a new one coming to our tribe as well!

  8. Chelle says:

    Dear Baby to Be,

    May the universe protect you at all turns, may the sun smile his brightest on you, the moon lull you to sweet dreams the likes none have known before. May the gods & goddesses wrap your mama up in love, peace, safety, and may you grow strong, loved, and nourished there, in her womb, singing to her heart beating for you. May Gran Kitty rest assured that there are witches out here, willing to shine light all around and over y’all, our light little one will combine, and it will blast out any shadows sent your way.

    Laughter shall be your friend, peace shall be your companion, and love your ever lasting comfort where ever you may be, whom ever you become, and how ever long you walk this earth. Shine on shine on little star!

  9. Sarah C. says:

    So happy for you – I too became A gran kitty June 27 2013 <3 she has been my sunshine and saving grace through the loss of my Mom in October. Love light and blessings to you Seba xxoo

  10. Suzanne Walker says:

    Why, oh why am I just now reading this post? Beautifully written, my dear.
    I am so happy for Trill AND for you, Gran Kitty.
    All will be well for mother and child (and Gran).
    hugs!
    slw

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